Reliance

"Relying on God has to start all over everyday, as if nothing has yet been done." - C.S. Lewis

This is a quote that I saw somewhere and wrote down about a year ago, knowing it was something I needed to be reminded of on a regular basis. That has never been more true than in these last few months. This journey of following God as He leads me to Rwanda has brought with it every emotion imaginable...ones I didn't even think could have anything to do with this process. There have been times of extreme closeness to the Lord and times when I felt like He was far from here. There have been questions that seemed to have no answers and answers provided before I even knew to ask the question. Recently some things I had counted on changed once again which means more adjusting, praying, and waiting. For a planner like me, this has been one wild ride of trust and faith. I have failed to trust and wait more times than I even want to admit. Every time I come back to the Lord, He reminds me that this is a process that I have to take one step at a time. Each time a new obstacle presents itself or even when plans are coming together smoothly and it all seems to be falling into place, I must remind my soul that every morning (or a million times throughout the day), I have to start over with relying on His hand to guide me through each step.
I don't know where you are or what you might be needing God's guidance for, but know that He can be counted on. We can begin each day relying on Him for what only He can provide.

Jesus-
Please remind me every day that I need You more than I realize. When You show me my need, would You also help me to lay down my agenda and expectations to rely fully on You. Teach my soul to surrender anew every morning!